Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Let's get really real....sugar is my drug of choice. I am joining the no sugar movement truly this time!


Sorry for my delay on getting this written….lots of stress and work the last couple of weeks, so things have not been going as I had planned.  In fact, this is teaching me that I need a more intentional and measured strategy to continue being really healthy even during the most difficult moments of life.

What has been going well?  OK, so I’ve continued yoga and exercise in general…running outside in the spring air too.  I have been eating my greens and taking care of myself, but I have let fall some of my meditative practice and my well-being journal.  Starting it again today actually.  So, it’s been a hit and miss couple of weeks.  The first blow hit me when my show got so busy that I just didn’t have time to keep on top of eating healthy.  I succumbed to a few meals with sugar in them just because they were quick.  I also ended up indulging in some chocolate and even some ice cream late at night because I was tired and in need of some comfort.

It strikes me that I want to take more of a personal approach to this blog now because I’ve been writing more generally, and not telling the stories of what I am going through.  For me, the hardest thing about living a healthy life is all the added sugar in everything.  I was just trying to buy bread at the store because I did not have any time to make any during my busy semester when I had A Midsummer Night’s Dream opening plus I had two Festival of Faith and Writing sessions that I was a part of…one of them the first reading of a new script.  Eating healthy, it strikes me, takes a ton of time and also enough money to buy all the fresh, good ingredients.

I’ve just finished reading The Year of No Sugar:  A Memoir and what I was most struck by in the narrative written by Eve Schaub, is that she spent the entire year writing about not eating sugar and then developing great food in her kitchen, but this is all she did.  She did not have lots of other jobs to do.  Yes yes, she was caring for her two daughters and teaching a writing course, but the rest of the time she could spend taking an entire day to make a meal of homemade spaghetti and meatballs or a homemade meal of gnocchi.  I would LOVE to do that, but the time is just not a possibility for me six months of the year. 

So…as I am now going to truly enter a year of no sugar added….and I mean it…I am going to scour the food labels and make sure I am eating nothing with added sugar, my journey is going to look quite different from Eve’s.  The wake up call for me came this past week when I went in to the doctor with a ton of inflammation.  Some of this is from stress from my job, but some is from the chronic fatigue syndrome flaring up.  My doctor asked me if I had seriously given up sugar or if I was still using it as a coping mechanism.  I confessed to her that yes, I was still using it to get by in stressful situations.  It was like confessing that I was using drugs…well…I guess I am.  I mean, I love the sugar high and then I even love the crash because it often lulls me into a nap for 90 minutes.  No joke.

OK OK…I am going to seriously give it up now.  In fact, I am making Easter Dinner and it will be a no sugar affair, except for the carrot cake but even there I am cutting it way back for the sake of my guests.  And yes yes, I am going to have to learn to cook with no sugar and I am going to have to learn how to make myself healthy even during times of intense stress when I want to turn to this drug the most for help. 

Just a funny anecdote, I told my daughter Julia that come Sunday all sugar and sugar-added foods would be out of the house but I told her she could pick an exception, be it ketchup or what have you.  She picked her favorite barbecue chips, but I actually suggested that she pick jam or something so she could continue to have peanut butter and jelly.  She is thinking.  And then she asked, can I pick sugar…like just sugar sugar?  Funny.  Me:  “No….you cannot.”  Sigh.

If you are looking for an interesting read, take a look at Eve’s memoir.  I am going to read a new book or blog every month during my year.  Here are the rules I am following:

1)    Get rid of all products in house that contain added sugar, in all its forms, including honey and maple syrup.  Gulp.  My pantry might look bare.  I am giving it to our church food pantry.
2)    Stock up on bananas, figs, and dates to make sure you have the natural sweetening agents available for smoothies, etc.
3)    No artificial sweeteners allowed in any form at all – be it splenda, stevia, etc.  Stevia is my favorite.  That will be difficult.
4)    Only buy products that contain no added sugars.
5)    Pick one exception to the rule that you can have.  Mine is red wine.  Julia has not picked yet.
6)    Once a month we get a treat and I will make it from scratch and we (me and Julia) decide what it is together….unless it’s someone’s birthday…then they get to decide and that will be our treat for the month.

I am worried about holidays and family gatherings.  I am worried about whether or not I can do this.  That’s why I am writing about it so openly.  But I cannot take the kind of inflammation I am dealing with now in the form of headaches and intense joint swelling.  What I have is a pre-arthritic condition and cutting sugars entirely can really help to end this.  So here I go.  The year of total health just took a step up!

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